So I would love to fill this post with lots of wit and pictures but to be honest, i'm too freaking tired! The drive was loooooonnng!! Addisyn did amazing! Thank you Jesus! But, thanks to traffic, we left at 9am and did not get here till after midnight! (We were supposed to be here by 9 ish) Plus the morning we left I had been up @ 6 with Addi and finishing packing! Then when we got here, Addisyn was so keyed up that she didn't go to bed till almost 2, woke up at 5, then woke up again at 8pm. Needless to say, im tired...hopefully today will be somewhat restful. (And I probably won't be making it till midnight to welcome the new year!
Anyways, Happy New Year everyone! Many blessings in 2010! The worst is over, the best is yet to come...
So tomorrow morning me, Eric, Addi, Eric's parents, his sister and her boyfriend Houston are loading up in his parents humongous motor home and making the trek to Tampa, Florida!!! It's going to take us approximately 12 hours and i'm so freaking nervous! I'm just going to go ahead and say that if Addisyn decides to scream the whole way I may be throwing back a few Miller Lite's with the rest of the clan;) We're going to meet Eric's grandparents and aunts/uncles/cousins down there to do Christmas and it should be a lot of fun!! But like I said before...I'll breath a sigh of relief when we arrive=)
Allison is constantly harassing me about being a blog slacker lately so i'm going to attempt to blog about our trip. Like I said... it should be interesting! More to come...stay tuned...
So I have to make this post quick b/c the day is starting and i've got places to go and people to see...
Two big events happened last week!
1) Addisyn was dedicated to Jesus last Sunday! It was an amazing time when Eric and I were able to commit her life to Jesus, realizing that she is His and not ours, and publicly ask God (and the church) for help in raising her to be a young woman after His heart. It was awesome! Also, we were very thankful to get to dedicate Addi along with the Dameron family and Lilyana. Allison and I had been wanting to dedicate the girls together from the very beginning of our pregnancies and so this was kinda one of those "Thank ya Jesus we made it" moments!
2) I had a new niece born! Julia Lane Feyer (born to Eric's brother Chad and his wife Amy) was born on 11/12/09 and she weighed 8lbs 7oz! I got to be there at the hospital for her birth, which was really special, since I was also there for Olivia's birth (my other niece). When Olivia was born Eric and I were only dating, so it was cool to be at Julia's birth now that Eric and I are married and have our own baby girl! Plus it's so fun that Addi and Julia are going to be so close in age! Isn't the picture of Eric, Chad and the girls cute?!!
So, Allison and I talk about blogging pretty often and one thing we agree on is that we would like our blogs to be practical and real, but also with a little spiritual revelation. Basically, some posts are just about nonsense, but every now and then we both like to throw in a lil nugget of truth.
Now, let me tell ya...the "nuggets of truth" do not come around as often as I may like. =) With being a stay at home mom and working two days a week, it is much easier to blog about poop blow outs, drama at work, or Addisyn's latest milestone than a "blog worthy" spiritual thought.
In my quiet time lately I have been eating up some Romans, though. Romans is one of those books that we LOOOOVVEE when we first get saved, but it's also great to revisit frequently because it is full of so much of the "meat" of salvation and our Christian life!
(**PAUSE**...give Addisyn the paci)
(**PAUSE AGAIN**...get Addi out of the swing and lay her on the floor in front of the TV...is it bad that my 3 month old watches TV?!)
Anyways... I came across this verse "What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God's faithfulness? Not at all!..." Romans 3:3-4
I love this verse!!! I mean, I really really really try to live a lifestyle of faith. I CHOOSE to believe that God is bigger and is always in control in ALL situations. But sometimes, when the rubber meets the road, you do wonder if your faith is just all talk! When we sat in the doctors office and were told that Eric may have cancer, my mind ran wild! My mouth was saying "God knows the plans for our lives and He is in control" but, my mind was going "I can't do this...I'm too young for this...What if become a widow at 23?...What if Eric and I aren't guaranteed a lifetime together?...What if he isn't here to walk Addisyn down the aisle at her wedding or sit next to me at her highschool graduation?" I mean, I'm just being honest...those were my "dark moment" thoughts.
I remember calling Allison and saying "I talk about having faith, but now I don't know if I can really do it...this is hard!" But the beauty of it all is that God's faithfulness was not phased by my doubts and lack of faith!
And you know what? We made it! God was so faithful and we ended up with a good report for Eric!! I love the fact that God doesn't need me! God's faithfulness doesn't rely on my faith...His strength does not rely on my being strong! He is strong when I am weak!!! What an amazing God we serve!
So Tuesday at 11 was Eric's appointment... They told us to be there no later than 10:30am! Well, trying to get from our house to Duke by 10:30, with an infant, was not something I was looking forward to. Our day started at about 6:15. Avoiding the full story of the rushing, stress, etc....let's just say we made it.
First of all, I need to make mention of the fact that Duke Medical Center is insane! It's on a whole 'nother level as far as hospitals go. That place had like 14 parking decks, 40 million elevators, too many different floors and wings, but they had it so well laid out (with excellent signs and maps) that you never felt lost or disoriented. We were walking around with our mouths hanging open like tourists....it was impressive!
Eric was sent to the Morris Cancer Clinic to see Dr. Shalini Ramasunder. It was kinda discouraging to be sent to the Cancer ward, but we just tried to ignore it. Once we got in there though, it was a hard fact to ignore. The place was huge!! (Probably 75 people in the waiting room!) And everywhere you looked people looked downcast, many women were walking around with scarfs on there heads and sunken eyes from a recent chemo treatment. It was a very heavy atmosphere. I was glad that I had Addisyn because she kinda was a bright spot for everyone in there. I almost cried though when one woman came up to me and said "Tell me you aren't here for her...tell me she's healthy and doesn't have cancer." Intense stuff...
So after almost two hours of waiting (not easy with a 3 month old)...we got in to see the doctor. Now, Eric and I had developed a picture in our mind of what we thought Dr. Ramasunder would be like. Our opinion included her probably being a nerd and more than likely not speaking English. We were wrong. She spoke English probably better than I do and she was not a nerd at all! She was super down to earth and even kept us laughing. All I could think to myself was "she should be on Grey's Anatomy because she's super cute and funny, but I bet she is a beast of a surgeon" (I mean, you don't get to be an orthopaedic surgeon at Duke without being amazing).
Anyways, she felt Eric's foot and looked at the MRI and "deliberated" with her residents that she was training (again, very Grey's Anatomyish). When she came back into the room, she told us that she couldn't feel a distinct mass in his foot. Usually if it's a synovial sarcoma (cancer) she can feel the tumor. Also after looking at the MRI, she didn't think it looked like a sarcoma either. (I know that doesn't sound very convincing, but she gave a lot more reasons I just can't remember them.)
So the good news is that it doesn't look like Eric's tumor is cancer! Praise God! Instead, she says its a type of vascular tumor called a hemangioma, which is basically a clump of blood vessels in a place where they shouldn't be, surrounded by a layer of fat. This was her diagnosis, but she is also going to consult with the radiology team at Duke and let us know for sure in the next few days. The other good news is that she doesn't think she needs to operate (or more like she doesn't think she CAN operate...so much for her career on Grey's). She said that in order for her to be able to take out the mass, she would need to know what she was taking out. If she opened up his foot, she said that the hemangioma, because it is just blood vessels, would look very much like everything else in his foot. She doesn't want Eric to have to go through major foot surgery if she isn't sure that she can take out the mass (and if it's not malignant...she doesn't feel the urgency either).
I think that's great for right now because surgery on the bottom of your foot is a HUGE deal to recover from. Eric is pleased and relieved but also a little bummed because he's still in a lot of pain. Once were done with the cancer/surgery drama of it all...he will be seeing another doctor for options on how to manage the pain.
All in all...I am so thankful! God is so amazing. When you sit in a doctor's office at 23 years old and they tell you that it's a possibility that your husband may have cancer...it's not a fun feeling. I don't even need to write all the things that went through my mind...i'm sure anyone can guess. But I worked hard to fight the devil and take those thoughts captive! And to constantly stand on the fact that my God is big and His plans for my life are for welfare and not for calamity!! Thank you Jesus for seeing us through!
Okay, so I just finished my post about my sweets problem=)
But there is something else on my mind...
For as long as I can remember, Eric has had foot pain. He's not a complainer, so other than a mention of it here or there we didn't really pay much attention to it. We both wrote it off as him being out of shape, wearing the wrong shoes and maybe even an old sports injury. It had been "diagnosed" as plantar fasciitis...so we just assumed that was it.
Then in the past few months, he started having pain in his hip and lower back... And it got worse. A few times he would fall out of bed in the morning because his entire left leg would be numb! This was not cool.
He started out going to a chiropractor, since the back pain was the most annoying. The chiropractor took x-rays and told him that two of his vertebrae at the bottom of his spine were touching and pinching his sciatic nerve. Eric got many many adjustments there, but the pain didn't really go away.
I encouraged him to go to a basic family doctor for a physical, and so he could download about his pain and get a fresh perspective. He went to the doctor and Eric was told again that his foot problem sounded like basic fasciitis, but since he'd been having foot pain for so long (8ish years) the doctor wanted him to see a podiatrist ("foot doctor") for confirmation.
The podiatrist took some x-rays of his foot and immediately ruled out fasciitis since the longest case he's ever heard of lasted only about 15 months. The x-rays immediately showed some sort of weird "bone growth" type thing on his heel bone. Nothing to be concerned about...they can do a quick and easy surgery to fix it, no problem. But the doctor did think it was weird that it was causing him so much pain because these types of things rarely do.... so he ordered an MRI for a better look. And then Eric was called back for another MRI a few days later.
I went with Eric to the follow up appointment to get the results of the MRI. Why was I there? Because I wanted to make sure that we would be able to schedule this "simple" surgery at a good time that would work well around my petty schedule. The news we received was not quite what we planned.
The doctor said that the "irony" of it was that the thing they originally saw on the x-ray was nothing, but that there is a "soft tissue mass with blood flow to it" on the bottom of Eric's foot. He showed us the tumor on the MRI and I immediately began to hate that white blob. The doctor told us about 6 different possibilities of what it could be. In my limited medical understanding (which consists of what i've learned from Grey's Anatomy), I just heard "cancer or not cancer."
Blah Blah Blah...the doctor talked some more and the long and short of it is that Eric has now been referred to Duke to see an orthopedic oncologist. I was so thankful and appreciative for our doctors humility in telling us that Eric needed to see the "best" for this kind of tumor and he wasn't it.
So that's about all we know right now. Tuesday at 11 am is Eric's appointment at Duke. Surgery is in the near future we are told...and it doesn't sound like an easy surgery! And then of course there will be biopsies and so on and so forth.
So anyways...Yes, it stresses me out! Yes, I get scared! I'm not sure how i'm going to take care of my husband after major foot surgery. I don't know how we're going to handle trips back and forth to Duke with Addisyn. I don't know what will happen, if we do find out it's cancer...but I can't worry about that! I have to focus on God's promises to me that are yes and amen! He will never leave me...He works all things together for our good! He loves me, my husband and my child more than I will ever be able to comprehend!!!!
"When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your consolations delight my soul." Ps. 94:19
Okay, starting off, this is completely unrelated to my post but my husband is watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on Cartoon Network as I type this...he's got weird taste in TV sometimes.
I have a problem. A major problem. A sugar problem!!!! I'm not talking about the occasional "oh I need chocolate because i'm a woman" problem... I'm talking about the CONSTANT craving of cookies, brownies, ice cream, candy, cookie dough, and a combination of all!!! (yum) Seriously, I took a spoon to some cookie dough this morning at 7am! Also, sometimes I decide to just skip lunch and help myself to a sundae from sonic instead...out of control! I blame it on nursing, but I think i've just gotten my taste buds addicted to sugar!
My problem recently is due to 2 factors I've decided:
1) I'm an adult now. I do the grocery shopping. I buy too many sweets if they look good to me. I eat ice cream for lunch instead of a balanced meal. Oh mother, how I wish you were here to grocery shop for "healthy snacks" like carrot sticks and dried apricots! Oh self control, please take the place of my mother when it comes to my diet!
2) This dang Halloween! I mean you have to buy "Treats" for the trick or treaters...enough said.
Anyways, i've got to do something to change. I mean the cravings are crazy and I don't feel good with all the sugar...
Which leads me to my second (although related) topic... I need to get in better shape and hopefully lose a few pounds. Now, I'm gonna go ahead and say it, If you are thinking "Oh my gosh Anne Michelle you're already so skinny, I hate you!" or "Your baby weight just dropped off, I hate you" or "You have it so easy, I hate you!" then just stop reading.
Those are comments that I get a lot and just to clear things up: 1) No, I do not think I am fat 2) No, i'm not anorexic 3) No, I'm not fishing for a compliment.
I just think that my sugar problem is a smaller component of an overall snacking problem...And every girl no matter if she's 100 lbs or 200 lbs has an "ideal" weight where she feels great...and I feel like i'm a few pounds heavier than that ideal weight.
My plan is quite simple now really...take time for a lil exercise and quit the snacking! I eat out of bordem and it's a terrible habit!
That's about it I guess... I wish I could leave you with some pictures, but i'm too lazy to go get my camera and upload them (so much for motivation to exercise)!
Hi to all my millions of blog fans! First of all i'd like to apologize to all of you who have been sitting by your computer hitting refresh every 5 minutes waiting for me to post again... I know it's hard but I have found myself extremely busy lately. Also, if you've emailed me recently i'm like 3 months behind in responding to the 600+ emails in my inbox, but I will try to get back to you as soon as possible.
Basically, life is just moving fast. I work 2 days a week which is craziness. It takes a full 2 hours on the mornings that I work to get myself ready and get Addisyn ready, packed up, and out the door to Grandma's house. (It takes Eric two hours to get himself out of bed and take a shower!) The rest of the days i'm juggling between house work, grocery shopping, other random errands, laundry, naptimes (for Addi, not me) , Community Bible Study, church functions and hanging out with friends!
Recently on Facebook one of my "friends" (the quotes indicate that we are friends on facebook but not exactly in real life...she's more like a friend of a friend of my brother's)...anyways, her status said "so and so (name changed to protect the ignorant) wants to know why middle school kids keep posting statuses about how stressed out they are. what's there to be stressed about about...your study skills quiz or your boyfriend of 3 days breaking up with you?"
This status totally made me flip out! Homegirl is a freshman in college!!! I may only be 23 years old, but I know that she is not the one to talk about stress! Seriously!?! College life was a breeze!!! ...I mean, get married, have a baby, pay two mortgages, have debt (lots of debt), try to figure out how to get good health insurance and life insurance, start thinking about writing a will, work a 60-h0ur a week job for a while, change a poop blow out, yell at your dog, go to the grocery store, cook dinner, clean up dinner, keep the house looking like a picture out of a pottery barn catalog, do laundry, do baby laundry which requires an entire bottle of spray and wash, try to become more like Jesus in the midst of it all, and make sure you're looking gorgeous and ready to give the hubby a kiss and smile when he gets home...that's stress!
Now to all my many blog followers who are further along in life and are laughing at me for thinking I know stress...feel free to have a good laugh at my expense.
MondayI went back to work for the first time since having Addisyn and had a great day! I brought her with me and she did really well. We were able to stay on schedule and she napped there better than she naps at home sometimes! It was kinda hard for my Type A personality to not be 100% focused on work, but Eric kept telling me "How many people get the opportunity to work and bring their babies?"...He's so right. I didn't actually get more than 1 1/2 hrs of uninterrupted work time and didn't feel as productive as I could've been, but I was at peace having my baby with me. :) I don't know when I'll actually start leaving Addisyn...I guess whenever it stops working out having her there.
Tuesday was date day with Allison and Lilyana, of course! We met for lunch at the mall, which was great b/c we were able to eat and do some shopping and only had to get the girls out of the car once!! It was pretty funny though b/c Addisyn and Lilyana were a tag team at screaming the whole day. One would start crying and when she stopped the other one would start! It came time for the girls to eat, but of course Ally and I were not done shopping so we did what anyone would do (joking)...we sat in the car together with our flashy hooter hiders and nursed! Following that was a trip to Once Upon A Child (where I got a Bumbo seat for $15...I'll have to post a pic of Addi in it), and of course we finished up the day with HUMONGOUS brownie sundaes from The Daily Grind. Fortunately the babies were sleeping by then so Allison and I enjoyed gaining back our baby weight in one dessert. :) Good times....good times...
Wednesday UGH!!! As soon as Addisyn woke up on Wednesday morning I knew it was not going to be good. The poor thing was stuffed up and basically she SCREAMED ALL DAY!!! I just had to walk around and bounce her, which was exhausting and kinda frusterating since I had a mental to-do list of stuff I wanted to get done around the house. Anyways...Wednesday was screaming day...let's move on....
Thursday Today I just decided that Addisyn and I were going to take it slow since she's got a little bit of a cold. I threw my to-do list out the window and was determined to just cuddle my pitiful baby all day! It actually turned out to be a great day! Addisyn just sat with me and she slept most of the day!!! At one point I laid her on the couch next to me and we both fell asleep. I think it was only my second nap since she's been born! I pretty much watched TLC all day long, thanking God during every Baby Story that Addisyn was in my arms and all that labor and delivery stuff was behind me!! It was so nice to rest (and have Addi resting) and just release myself from trying to do too much.
Today finished up wonderfully with my husband showing up with flowers, a card, and tons of chocolate for me!! Just because i'm a great wife and mom, ya know?!?! It was soooo sweet of him and it made me cry! He's an awesome husband, a great daddy, and my best friend! I'll keep him around. ;) I'm hoping he'll keep me around after I get fat b/c of all the candy he brought me!!! I love you E!!
Tomorrow we go back to work...me, my hubby and my baby! I'm very lucky!
So tomorrow I start back work. It's really only 2 days a week so not too bad (but those two days are loooong hours). I was working as the Finance Manager @ ole' Feyer Ford before I got pregnant...6 days a week! I really enjoyed it. I learned a lot and got to interact with every customer!! Once I got pregnant though (after the 3 months I took off b/c of sickeness), I couldn't handle so many hours and my hormonal, emotional nerves could not handle having to deal with all the customers (lol...the thing I enjoyed before pregnancy was the thing I couldn't take during it)!! I mean, I love people, and I love meeting Feyer Ford customers but when I was preggers I just didn't have the energy to deal with explaining paperwork, answering a million questions and then dealing with the small percentage of customers that you just couldn't make happy no matter what you did. Now, I work back in the office doing title work and reporting all our sales to Ford Motor Co. At least that's the bulk of my job... I've given myself the title of "Problem Manager" b/c that's really what I do. Whenever there's some sort of vehicle ordering, sales reporting, contract funding, title, inventory, etc problem...then I handle it. =)
I'm soooo nervous about leaving Addisyn! Not because I don't think she'll be taken care of, I mean, she'll be staying with my mom one day a week and Eric's mom the other day...so the Grandma's will take good care of her for sure! I'm more nervous for me! I'm gonna miss her sooo much and i'm worried she'll miss me. :) She's gotten pretty attached to her Momma. I'll make it though. The first week or so i'm just going to bring her with me. I'm not sure how much work i'll get done, but it will make the transition easier.
All in all, i'm looking forward to going back to work a couple days. It'll give me something different to do and it's "intellectually stimulating"... all the details keep my brain sharp. Oh yeah, and the paycheck doesnt hurt either;) If anyone reads this, say a prayer for me as I leave my baby!! Here are some pics of Addi at Feyer Ford... (various ages...all out of order;) )
So, yes, right now I am a slacker on so many levels! Eric is outside cutting the grass and I just told him I was going to come inside to pick up the house. Well, once I was inside I thought..."hmmm...I could just relax today and pick up around here tomorrow when Eric's back at work and I don't have anything going on"...then I remembered "IM GOING BACK TO WORK TOMORROW!!!" AHHH!!! After remembering that, I was convinced that I was going to clean up b/c I didn't want to leave and have to come home to a messy house tomorrow! All good in theory. As I was contemplating my newfound mission, I decided to help myself to the last piece of eric's birthday cake. Thank God ive finally finished that cake...it's been such a temptation! LOL!
Basically it all went downhill from there...now i'm blogging and putting new music on my iphone. The house sits with baby stuff scattered from one end to the other...but you know what??? I've spent every spare minute of my whole week trying to keep baby stuff picked up and its just not worth it today. I've justified in my mind that if I am going to start back work tomorrow it's probably better that I just relax today anyways.=) Continuing with the slacker theme...I really wanted to write a blog about the things i've been doing lately and put up some new pics of Addisyn, or maybe some pics of the pumpkins and mums I bought to decorate for fall, but Nope...too lazy for that.
So here I sit...being lazy...bloggin about being lazy...downloading music...facebooking...and enjoying every minute:)
I'm not gonna lie... It's always a bit of a relief every year once Eric's birthday is over. It's not that I don't want to celebrate his bday, it's just that I put so much pressure on myself to make it amazing (and the pressure is really unnecessary, he doesn't care that much). Anyways, yesterday after church we got lunch, just our little family. Generally, I'm quick to veto a restaurant suggestion if I really don't want it but considering it was Eric's bday I let him pick where we eat. In my mind I kept saying "not BW3's, not BW3's" b/c I just wasn't in the mood for wings, tv screens and noise at the time. Of course he picked BW3's and I went (with a good attitude I might add!). That afternoon after lunch we cleaned like crazy!!! I wanted the house to look nice for our friends that were coming over, but we mainly just used that as an excuse to get things really in orderr. The "party" started at 5! We had a bunch of couples in our church over and all their kids. It was a great night of fun chaos! = ) This year, I overcame my natural tendency to stress about making Eric's birthday "perfect" and just tried to keep things simple (which usually turns out better anyways b/c then im not a basket case). I just got pizza for everyone and we ate cake and chilled. All in all, I hope my husband had a wonderful 25th birthday...he deserves it! I love you E!
So, yes, I'm writing this at 7:00am before the hubby, baby (and dog) are awake!
Today is Eric's 25th birthday! I was teasing him about getting old and how now he's gonna have to round his age up to 30;) But seriously, "Happy Birthday E!! I love you more than I can express and i'm so thankful to have you in my life!!! You are a great daddy and I look forward to many more adventures together". =) This afternoon we're gonna have a few friends over for pizza and just to hang out and celebrate! I'm gonna hopefully make a cake and some other sweets and get this house picked up....and hopefully Addisyn will take a good nap and be happy=) Hopefully, I will be able to post some pics here of our little bday extravaganza. (Wow...that's a lot of hopefullys in that paragraph...yikes!)
Yesterday, Ginny Corbett, a friend from church and an amazing photographer, took some pictures of me, Eric, and Addi now that we are a family! We went to two different locations outdoors and shot some really cool artsy pictures (the kind where you're not supposed to look at the camera, you just have to look natural and "interact"!). I had been soooo stressed out about the pictures all morning b/c I wanted them to be good, and it was borderline raining, and I didn't want Addisyn to freak out!!! She did so good for the first half of the outdoor pics, then it started to get closer to naptime and she got fussy. It worked out though...we just ended up with a few pictures with the paci in. ;) On the way back to Ginny's house, Addisyn fell asleep in the car and got a little power nap. After that, when it came time to lay her on the backdrop for her close up pics, she came alive!!! She was kicking her little feet and smiling and talking...Thank you Jesus! I can't wait to see them! Thanks Ginny!
My grandparents have been here since Thursday to see Addisyn! We've been having a fun time with them here and it's really cool that Addi gets to meet her first set of great-grands!
On another note, Friday I got out of the house, by myself, for myself for the first time since Addisyn has been born! I had left her a few other times but just really to run to the grocery store or something. Well by last Friday I was BURNT OUT!!! It had been a long week and I just needed to do something for myself. My mom kept Addisyn so Allison and I could have a little "Mommys Day Out"! (Allison was burnt out too! ;) ) We ate lunch at Panera, got pedicures and did the fastest trip ever through Target!!! I mean, when your breastfeeding you're on a tight schedule but we could not miss an chance to go to target so we just booked it! On the way back to Allison's house "don't worry, we didn't get in a wreck!" (lol)
That's about all I can think of right now! Sorry this post is a little scattered!
Oh...the other day we took pics of Addisyn and Lilyana in matching outfits! Addi is on the left...she's the big one=) And they totally linked arms all by themselves! Friends already;)
So, let me start out this post by saying that my child sleeps like a champ! Addisyn has been consistently sleeping from 10:30pm - 6:30am and then she'll still go back to sleep at 6:30!! It is wonderful! Now that we're only getting up at 6:30ish, I have found myself unable to go back to sleep so, I've started just getting up to have some time to myself in the peace and quiet....aka "the mom time"! I used to always think it was stupid when EVERY mom I knew would talk about waking up early before their kids so they could have some time to themselves...but now I get it. When I was in college, my thought was always "what better time could you have to yourself than to be sleeping?" but now I too actually enjoy getting up so I can have time to do the things that I won't really be able to do once Addisyn wakes up, Eric leaves for work, and the day gets started. It's fun to have the house to myself to actually eat breakfast, use the bathroon (let's be honest, if you have a screaming baby using the bathroom is not a top priority!), read my Bible...and just think!
So this morning my thought process went to irrational fears. This is because yesterday when I was hanging out with my bestest homie Ally D...our conversation drifted to irrational fears that we've been having lately. Technically, I guess you could say our fears aren't super irrational. I think of irrational as like the fear that you are going to drown in the shower or something...our fears are more just very unlikely.
Allison saw on the news something about some guy that broke into someone's house and beat people up with a baseball bat while they were sleeping...so now she's nervous about people breaking in. I'm scared of having a fire in our house, especially b/c our bedroom is downstairs and Addisyn's is upstairs. Allison and I have had conversations about fear and faith and trust a million times and neither of us are overall fearful people at all!...but thats why these fears are somewhat irrational. Because of it, Allison has become a dead bolt nazi and Addisyn will probably sleep in my room until she's 13! =)
Somehow, all of this made me think this morning of a veggie tales song that I used to sing with my sunday school class..."God is bigger than the booogie man, He's bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV, Yes, God is bigger than the boooogie man, and He's watching over you and me!" Obviously this song is meant for kids, but the practical truth is one that we can learn from even as adults. God is big!!! God is in control!! He is all powerful, sovereign and well able to protect us from harm!!! What about the people who actually have to deal with the tragedy's that are my irrational fears? God is able to give them a supernatural grace in those circumstances!!! This all reminded me of one of my favorite verses when dealing with fear..."Cast all your cares on Him because he cares for you." (1 Pet. 5:7) God cares about our irrational fears...He knows them already. But He doesn't want us to have to live in bondage to them. We can cast them upon Him, because He cares for us!!!
"We do it because we are responsible parents" was my quote from yesterday after our looong difficult drs appointment...
Yesterday morning was Addisyn's one month well visit checkup (even though she's almost 6 weeks old). The experience was not a fun one!!! We were there a total of 2 hours for them to look at her for about 10 minutes and tell me that she's beautiful and she'll get her shots next visit. UGGGHHH! Couldn't I have just called in and told you "Hi my baby is beautiful and healthy. Thanks!" and that count for the visit?!?! Frusterating! Fortunately Eric took off work to come with me, or I wouldve lost my mind. He gave me someone to talk to and someone to help me hold Addisyn when she got fed up with being there. Oh, they did weigh her. That was fun! She weighed 10lbs 11oz now and she doesn't hide it!! J/k...she's absolutely the most beautiful baby in the world, but she is getting to be a big girl!
After the doctor, we met TD, Allison, Bella and Lilyana at Zaxby's for some grub. It was pretty much TD and Allisons first trip out as a family of four! Lunch was eventful with all 7 of us (I can't believe we are now 7 between our two families) crammed around one table!
Since Eric was home, I convinced him to go with me to Once Upon A Child to see if we could pick up a few things for Addisyn since, as I said before, she's getting to be a big girl now and doesn't fit in newborn clothes anymore!!! I totally had an emotional moment afterwards and said to Eric "my little girl is growing up!"...doing the man thing, he rolled his eyes and was like "you can't really say that until she goes to college" ...which is stupid. There are going to be stages throughout Addisyn's entire life when i'm going to think "my little girl is growing up" ...first words, first steps, first pee pee on the potty, first day of kindergarten, first grade, second grade, third grade, etc., ...all the way though college graduation and her wedding! I'm making a point to cherish every moment that she's a baby!
Also, I'm having so much fun now that Lilyana is born! She and Addisyn are going to be best friends! They are already bonding as you can see from the pics above! That's about it for now...
Alright, so i've been wanting to do a blog since I found out I was pregnant! I signed up with blogspot a while ago, but then got discouraged because I couldn't figure out how to get my page as cute as I wanted it... and we all know that a blog is pointless if your page is not cute! =)
Why do I want a blog? Mainly for myself...as an outlet to write down stupid stuff about my day, to talk about Addisyn!!, and to share what Jesus is doing in my life! If anyone cares to read it thats cool too.
So basically here's an intro post...
The most exciting thing in my life right now is my sweet baby girl, Addisyn Faith! She was born August 10th at 1:47 pm and she was 8lbs 1oz! She is my life at this point! Literally, because I spend my whole day feeding her, changing her diapers, bouncing her when she cries and rearranging my schedule to keep her on a schedule. But even more so than that, she is my "best little girlfriend in the whole world"...she makes me cry when she smiles and she's teaching me about love in a whole new way!!!
I've been married for a little over two years to my super stud, sexy husband, Eric! Jon Gosslin makes me want to vomit now when I use this word, but yes, Eric is my "soulmate" (if you saw Jon's interview on Primetime, you know what i'm talking about). He's my best friend and I know that He was the one God intended for me before I was born! He's an awesome Daddy, and yes, Addisyn has him wrapped around her finger already.
Other than that...I love my family and my family-in-law! They are awesome! ...I work part time with Eric and the Feyer fam at Feyer Ford and Mercury ("Your Friend in the Car Business") doing title work and an assortment of other administrative detaily stuff!
That's about it for the intro post... More to come soon! I'm a stay at home mom right now and so naptime allows many hours for relaxing on the couch with the computer=)
My name is Anne Michelle and I am pregnant with my 2nd child! My due date is Dec. 3rd so we are just now getting started on this pregnancy journey. Pregnancy and I don't flow very well together, so this blog is to share my thoughts, tears, and prayers as I walk this road. I am blessed with an amazing husband and a beautiful, healthy little girl.